In a startlingly candid revelation, British rapper Professor Green has detailed the profound emotional turmoil he experienced just hours before marrying Made in Chelsea star Millie Mackintosh. The musician, whose real name is Stephen Manderson, confessed to suffering such an intense anxiety attack that he seriously considered calling off the entire ceremony.
The Wedding Day Crisis
The couple's 2013 wedding, which took place at Babington House in Somerset, was nearly derailed by what Green describes as overwhelming panic. "I had a full-blown anxiety attack the morning of the wedding," the rapper disclosed. "I was in the bath and I couldn't stop crying."
Green attributes this emotional breakdown to deep-seated trauma from his childhood and the tragic loss of his grandmother, who had been a pivotal figure in his life. The rapper's upbringing in Hackney was marked by significant challenges, including his father's suicide when Green was just 24 years old.
A Marriage Cut Short
Despite the lavish ceremony and public perception of a fairy-tale romance, the marriage lasted only three years before the couple divorced in 2016. Both have since moved on - Green with his fiancée Karima McAdams, and Mackintosh with her husband Hugo Taylor, with whom she shares two children.
The rapper's emotional disclosure forms part of his upcoming documentary, Professor Green: Suicide and Me, where he explores mental health issues with remarkable vulnerability. His willingness to discuss such personal struggles represents a significant departure from traditional masculine stereotypes in the music industry.
Life After the Split
Since their separation, both Green and Mackintosh have rebuilt their lives. Millie has established herself as a wellness entrepreneur and author, while Green continues his music career alongside his mental health advocacy work.
The rapper's story serves as a powerful reminder of the hidden struggles that can exist beneath the surface of even the most glamorous celebrity weddings, and highlights the importance of addressing mental health issues openly.
