Former Geordie Shore star Holly Hagan has spoken publicly about the devastating grief and profound guilt she feels following the death of her younger sister. Her half-sister, Darci, died in October at the age of just 19 after an accidental drug overdose.
A Night Out That Ended in Tragedy
The teenager passed away 48 hours after taking crystal MDMA during a night out at the Warehouse Project in Manchester. Holly, who is expecting her second child with husband Jacob Blyth, revealed her torment stems from not warning Darci about the dangers that specific night.
"The grief I have for Darci is guilt," Holly told the Mail. She contrasted her own fortunate life—marriage, children, career—with the future stolen from her sister. "My life hadn't even started at 19 and she doesn't even have the chance to see any of it," she said, her heart broken by the unfairness.
Regret and Unanswered Questions
Holly's biggest regret is not messaging her that night to urge caution. Darci had used drugs before but had never taken MDMA in its crystal form. In the dark club, naively unaware of the potency, she reportedly poured the substance into her drink.
"What happened is possibly the bigger rocks had gone into her drink," Holly explained, noting it was enough to cause a fatal overdose. She admitted, however, she doesn't know if anything she could have said would have changed the outcome.
The Frantic Rush to Hospital
The reality star recounted the moment she realised something was terribly wrong. Woken by a light knock, she discovered 130 missed calls on her phone. A message in capital letters read: "We are with your sister, you need to get to Manchester Royal Infirmary right now."
"My whole body was in fight mode; I sat on the toilet shaking," Holly recalled of the 2am panic. She rushed to the hospital, where she praised the "phenomenal" and comforting care provided by the medical staff, despite the traumatic circumstances.
In her grief, Holly remembered Darci as a young woman full of life and simple dreams. She had just passed her driving theory test, was saving for a car, and loved her job as a cocktail waitress. "All she wanted to do was go to Starbucks and get a matcha and listen to her music," Holly shared, painting a poignant picture of a life cut devastatingly short.
