Blake Fielder-Civil's Haunting Last Promise to Amy Winehouse Days Before Her Death
In an emotional and extensive new podcast interview, Blake Fielder-Civil, the ex-husband of legendary singer Amy Winehouse, has revealed poignant new details about their tumultuous relationship and the final interactions they shared just before her tragic passing. Speaking on the We Need to Talk podcast with host Paul Brunson, Blake opened up about being cast as the "villain" in Amy's story, their intense romance, and the devastating moment he learned of her death.
The Tumultuous Romance and Public Scapegoating
Blake Fielder-Civil described how, following Amy Winehouse's death from alcohol poisoning at age 27 in 2011, he became a "convenient scapegoat" for her decline. The public narrative often painted him as the catalyst for her struggles with addiction, a label he vehemently disputes. "Our love had nothing to do with addiction, and addiction had nothing to do with our love," he asserted during the two-hour interview, acknowledging that while he introduced her to heroin, their bond transcended substance abuse.
The pair met in 2005, and their relationship escalated rapidly. Amy famously tattooed Blake's name on her chest within weeks, despite both being in other relationships at the time. They married in 2007 in Miami, but their union was marred by infidelity, drug use, and Blake's incarceration for a bar fight and later for burglary and firearm offenses.
Final Encounters and Stolen Correspondence
Blake revealed that the last time he saw Amy in person was just five months before her death. During that meeting, which lasted a couple of hours, they were "as intimate as we had been," and he promised her, "I'll see you soon, and I'll be better next time." At that point, Blake was still grappling with his own drug addiction, while Amy had reportedly kicked drugs but continued to battle bulimia and alcohol dependency.
Despite being imprisoned, Blake and Amy maintained contact through letters and phone calls. In her final letter to him, Amy suggested they focus on rebuilding their friendship, writing affectionately with nicknames and saying, "let's really give it a go as friends." Blake replied, but believes she never read his response. Tragically, on July 23, 2011, Amy was found dead. Blake recounted saving up prison phone credits to call her that day, trying multiple times with no answer, before prison officers delivered the shattering news.
Devastation and Aftermath
Hearing of Amy's death was Blake's "worst nightmare" come true. He initially thought it was a hoax, his mind "swimming" with disbelief. Forced to contain his emotions in the harsh prison environment, he only allowed himself to grieve once back in his cell. The final letter from Amy was later stolen by another inmate, adding to his anguish.
Blake expressed unwavering belief that if Amy were alive today, they would still be close, possibly meeting for a drink or coffee. "It was never final between us," he reflected, though he clarified that this doesn't necessarily mean they would have remained romantically involved.
Roots of Addiction and Personal Struggles
During the interview, Blake delved into the childhood traumas that fueled his substance abuse. He disclosed a suicide attempt at age nine while being bullied at boarding school, revealing he felt "very uncomfortable in my own skin" as a teenager. Drugs provided him with confidence and sociability, eventually becoming so ingrained that he "thought drugs were my personality."
He also addressed Amy's drug use, noting she was a cannabis user and drinker when they met, but first smoked heroin with him. However, he claimed a previous partner had introduced her to cocaine.
Life After Amy: Relationships and Loss
Following his divorce from Amy, Blake entered a relationship with Sarah Aspin, whom he met in rehab. They had two children, Jack and Lola-Rose, but social services removed the children due to ongoing drug use. Blake's mother, Georgette, made the heartbreaking decision to report them to authorities, leading to the children's adoption. In her book, Letting Blake Go, she described the agonizing choice, writing, "I kissed her goodbye and walked away... feeling as if my heart was breaking."
Blake and Sarah eventually separated, and Sarah died earlier this year at 47. Georgette speculated that Blake likely doesn't know about her passing. Blake is now reportedly in a "happy relationship" and free from addiction, living a low-key life in Leeds, where neighbors describe him as keeping to himself and not discussing his famous ex-wife.
This candid podcast interview offers a raw, unfiltered look into one of music's most tragic love stories, highlighting the complexities of addiction, love, and loss that defined Amy Winehouse and Blake Fielder-Civil's intertwined lives.
