Liza Minnelli's Memoir Reveals Mother's Suicide Attempts and Her Own Survival
Liza Minnelli's Memoir: Judy Garland's Suicide Attempts and Survival

Liza Minnelli's Harrowing Childhood with Judy Garland

At just six years old, Liza Minnelli experienced a traumatic event that would shape her life forever. Her mother, Hollywood icon Judy Garland, returned home from the hospital with a new baby sister, bringing temporary joy to the household. Liza had eagerly prepared with her dolls for this moment, embracing her role as a big sister. After years of turbulence culminating in her parents' divorce, it appeared her mercurial mother had finally found happiness.

Within days, that illusion shattered when staff discovered Judy Garland in a pool of her own blood after slitting her throat. This marked Liza's first encounter with her mother's numerous suicide attempts, a pattern that would recur throughout their relationship.

Hollywood Royalty and Inevitable Stardom

Born into Hollywood royalty, Liza Minnelli inherited a legacy from her mother, one of the greatest stars of her generation whose fanbase remains devoted five decades after her untimely death. A showbusiness career was inevitable for the daughter, and at 80 years old, Liza's stardom now rivals that of her famous mother.

She has established herself as a versatile performer—singer, dancer, and actor—and joined the elite ranks of EGOT winners (Emmy, Grammy, Oscar, Tony). Her iconic Oscar-winning performance as Sally Bowles in Bob Fosse's 1972 film Cabaret cemented her status. More recently, she showcased comedic talent in the cult US sitcom Arrested Development, all while maintaining a highly successful touring career.

The Dark Side of Stardom and Early Trauma

Liza's entire life unfolded under the blinding glare of the spotlight, and her new memoir reveals a treasure trove of fascinating, often tragic stories from an unbelievable life. From age 13, Judy Garland had been administered uppers and downers by studio executives determined to keep her working through punishing schedules, leading to lifelong pill addiction.

By the time Liza reached 13 herself, she had become her mother's primary caretaker—"a nurse, doctor, pharmacologist, and psychiatrist rolled into one." When Judy's prescriptions ran out, young Liza would desperately call doctors, pleading, "Please fill my mother's prescription. She needs the pills so she can get through...Please help me!"

Judy's volatility meant she could explode into rage over minor incidents or, without apparent cause, blame Liza for everything wrong in her life. Despite this traumatic upbringing, Liza's memoir demonstrates remarkable reservoirs of love and forgiveness that sustained her through childhood. She faced each challenge life presented with a smile and quick-witted humor.

Breaking Free and Building a Career

Even Liza had her limits, and by 16, she reached them, jetting off to New York to establish herself as a performer. Roles followed quickly, and while she acknowledges benefiting from nepotism—"suckled on the nepo-teat" as she frankly admits—her singular talent is undeniable. In an era where celebrity children often deny advantages, L refreshingly acknowledges how marvelous it was to have doors opened for her.

She astonished audiences on Broadway, in concerts, and television specials, gradually stepping out of her mother's shadow. During this period, she met singer Peter Allen, seeking relationship stability after her insecure childhood. They married when she was just 21, but their marital bliss encountered a significant obstacle: Allen's preference for men.

Liza returned home early from shopping one day to discover Allen in bed with another man. Shortly after this betrayal, her mother—whom she loved, cared for, and still felt responsible for—was found dead from a barbiturate overdose.

Decades of Addiction and Turbulent Relationships

Grieving both her mother and marriage at such a young age overwhelmed Liza, leading her to seek refuge in substances she should have avoided: pills, alcohol, and eventually cocaine. Addiction dominated her life for over four decades. Her all-or-nothing approach proved both blessing and curse—wonderful for performance but disastrous regarding drugs and certain relationships.

One such drug-fueled romance was with Peter Sellers. Meeting backstage after a 1972 London show, they fell madly in love. While Peter Allen was gay, Peter Sellers was "bona fide insane." After one argument, Sellers stormed out to visit friend Joan Collins in Highgate—a predominantly Jewish area of London—stepping from his car in full Nazi regalia while shouting "Sieg Heil." Recognizing the severity of his mental instability, Liza promptly returned to New York.

She soon became a regular at Studio 54, partying most nights while maintaining a rigorous performance schedule. Along the way, she acquired three more husbands and numerous affairs, including a cocaine-fueled fling with Martin Scorsese.

Disastrous Marriage and Eventual Sobriety

Her fourth husband, David Gest, was a "wheeler-dealer promoter who wore more makeup" than she did. Introduced through mutual friend Michael Jackson, Gest claimed wealth from business ventures with the King of Pop. Their marriage proved disastrous: he attempted to con her out of millions, insisted on a $3.2 million wedding, and during their divorce tried to sell her Warhol paintings behind her back.

When friend Michael Fierstein called in 2016 to report Gest's death, Liza's immediate response was "Ding dong, the witch is dead"—a sentiment Judy Garland would have appreciated.

Now eleven years sober and living in a Sunset Boulevard apartment, Liza's 80s appear poised to be her best decade yet. While done with marriage, she remains open to dating with specific criteria: "Ideally, I'd like to date an older elegant man who speaks beautifully and is filthy rich. Then I'd like to date a forty-year-old guy who is passionate about something. I don't care what. Then I'd like to date an eighteen-year-old who I see twice a week and whose name I don't know."

Oscars Controversy and Final Triumph

The only significant setback during her otherwise sensational seventies occurred at the 2022 Oscars, where she experienced ageism from singer-actress Lady Gaga. Scheduled to present the Best Picture award alongside Gaga to celebrate Cabaret's 50th anniversary, Liza had agreed to use a director's chair due to back pain. At the last minute, producers insisted she use a wheelchair instead.

Shockingly, Liza writes that "Lady Gaga insisted she would not go on stage with me unless I was in a wheelchair. Then, incredibly, she asked if I wouldn't be better off going home." Gaga even tested her memory: "What's the name of your film we're celebrating this year?"

Appalled but wanting the ordeal over, Liza agreed. Nervous on stage, she stumbled over words, allowing Gaga to swoop in as "the kindhearted hero for all the world to see." Backstage, Gaga attempted a halting apology, to which Liza coolly responded, "I'm a big fan."

Humiliated publicly, Liza sets the record straight in her memoir, emphasizing she has never sought pity from audiences and won't start now. When her mother first saw her on Broadway in 1963, Judy told her daughter, "Liza, you're gonna be bigger than me. Just don't let them kill you." She didn't—and this inspiring memoir chronicles a remarkable woman who survived against all odds to find peace at last.