Former Geordie Shore star Holly Hagan has bravely opened up about her emotional journey into motherhood, detailing her fears for her son Alpha-Jax and the challenges of postpartum anxiety.
In a heartfelt revelation, the 30-year-old reality TV personality admitted questioning her decision to become a mother while struggling with overwhelming anxiety. "I never expected to feel this way," she confessed, describing the "morbid fears" that plagued her after giving birth.
The Reality of Postpartum Anxiety
Hagan spoke candidly about the dark thoughts that consumed her during early motherhood. "I would lie awake terrified something terrible would happen to Alpha," she shared. "The anxiety was constant - checking his breathing, imagining worst-case scenarios."
The new mum explained how these fears manifested physically: "My heart would race, I couldn't sleep, and I felt constantly on edge. It wasn't how I imagined motherhood at all."
Breaking the Stigma
By sharing her story, Hagan hopes to normalise conversations about maternal mental health. "So many mums suffer in silence because they're ashamed to admit they're struggling," she said. "But asking for help isn't weakness - it's strength."
The television personality emphasised the importance of support systems, crediting her partner Jacob Blyth with helping her through the darkest moments. "Having someone who understands makes all the difference," she noted.
Looking to the Future
Now several months into her parenting journey, Hagan reports feeling more confident. "The anxiety hasn't disappeared completely," she admitted, "but I'm learning to manage it better every day."
She concluded with an uplifting message for other struggling parents: "It does get easier. Be kind to yourself, and remember - you're doing an amazing job."
