Patty Ellen, who had a near-death experience during an emergency caesarean operation, says she no longer fears death after being shown a life review and given a choice to return to her body.
The NDE Experience
Speaking on the NDE Diary YouTube channel, Patty described the moment she “died” on the operating table: “I remember being wheeled in… I remember hearing the sound of the heart monitor beeping. Then I remember it going flat. And at the very same moment that I heard it go beep, I rose out of my body and I was like just hovering there. I remember seeing a body. I remember seeing the doctors. I remember seeing everything that was going on.”
Within moments she was no longer in the operating theatre, but “somewhere else.” She found herself at the centre of a 360-degree “movie screen” on which she was shown key events of her life.
Life Review and Fear of Hell
“It was stopping at certain points in my life,” Patty recalled, “Some were good, some were not so good in the way I treated people.” As her life's replay lingered on her darkest moments, Patty began to fear she was being damned to Hell: “I think we all have done some things that we were not proud of, or treated people badly or said an unkind word or something like that. Those are the things that I'm talking about, that [the replay] was stopping at. For a split second, I thought to myself, 'I'm going to Hell... they're showing me this because they're going to say to me 'You're going to Hell'.'”
However, Patty became conscious of a presence beside her: “I felt them put a hand on my shoulder and tell me that I was doing OK and not to worry.” She claims this comforting message was conveyed telepathically: “All you have to do is think something and the other person knows it... I wish that we could communicate like that now.”
Forgiveness and the Choice to Return
Patty says the most potent message was one of forgiveness: “I believe it's so important for our soul, for our spirit, and not only to forgive other people, but to forgive ourselves. I had a really really hard time forgiving myself. I've worked on that a lot. It's definitely a learning thing where we're meant to... it's definitely to teach us where we can do better, where we've done good and where we need to improve.”
As the encounter drew to a close, Patty heard her infant's initial wail. She said: “The very same moment that he was crying, the person that was with me, who I didn't recognise, I felt like he loved me forever and ever. It was almost like he just loved me for eternity from back from before I was born until my future. I just felt like he loved me forever and is going to love me forever. That was very comforting. I only wish that I knew who it was. I have no clue.”
The presence communicated telepathically one final time, offering her the option of staying or returning. Realising her newborn had just arrived, Patty instantly decided to go back. She went on: “I was brought back to the hospital room where I saw doctors and nurses, about six or seven of them. I believe that they were giving me CPR because I remember them saying, 'She's not breathing.' At that moment when the person asked me, 'What do you want to do?' I was immediately shot back into my body when I said, 'I want to be with my baby.' The next day, I was in so much pain. My chest was hurting so badly.”
Lesson Learned
Patty claims she returned with an invaluable message: “The biggest thing that I took back from this is that what I was told is that we're here to learn unconditional love, compassion, forgiveness, kindness, acceptance, you know, all these things is what I was told. This is what we are here to do.”
Patty revealed that in her youth, she was utterly terrified of death, but her near-death experience has entirely transformed her perspective. “The biggest, most important thing is that I'm no longer afraid to die,” Patty said. “And the weird thing is that I can't wait to go back.”
