Jess Megan, the model and activist known for appearing in Channel 4's Bring Back The Bush in 2020, has revealed that her boyfriend, Olli, died four years ago. She shared her grief in a series of 12 videos posted on social media, documenting her emotional journey month by month throughout the year of his passing.
In the clips, Jess showed the progression of her grief: in January and February, Olli was still alive, but by March he had died. The March clip showed her with a bloodied nose, admitting she had been sleeping on his grave every night. In the following months, she was seen crying, not leaving the house, drinking heavily, and smoking up to 40 cigarettes a day.
By October, Jess had been hospitalised after suffering a heart attack. In November, she described herself as unrecognisable due to cortisol levels, and in December, she confessed she 'couldn't do another year of this.'
In the caption accompanying the post, Jess wrote: 'Grief is manic and ungracious. I'd never felt so insane. For the first time ever my mind felt like a locked box, with me on the outside.' She added that grief made her 'feral' and that she couldn't sleep because it was the only place she could see her boyfriend.
